01-23-2022, 05:02 PM
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how long a time it's been since she's hungered for the making that comes with the healing, holier season; for the thawing, and the thinking of nests, and the hold of strong, sure male arms, and the way a winter bride finds her home in the alcove of virile, volatile ribs. how her breath becomes his bellows, and his hers, and she is happy and fat and waddlesome with what they bring next into the fold they have made. and it has been so long since she has been heavy; so awfully long that she has been loving, for once so tethered to the earth by what she carries in her temporary, gleaming body rather than staring starved at the stars with wet anguish on her lashes.
lately, the need for her belly to blush and swell for the first time in an age is an ache. a clawing for the stormcloak and for the ranger and for the raven. for biting kisses that she does not deserve and the knowing that she might even be pretty enough, even be precious enough to him for more. for everything. for nothing.
yet, would that she could gather such a one to her and bear his cubs ... it might not be fair, insomuch that her heart is still broke, and though most of her stardust, godsung children are with her for now and ever ( or, so she hopes ) she does not know if they would take kindly to the hunger-now-need-now-ache turned newborn from her womb. could she love what came from her? could she love the one that bed her, but did not wed — at the very least, for a night? could she cherish those that had found her, while she nursed and tried to remember how to nurture true and well?
could she love ...without her faceless, formless husband? he, who she always keeps hurt for in her stonedead heart? he, who, no matter living or ended, she vowed once to never betray even now? even here?
as much as she knows, their children are not here; gone into the mists as they are so wont to do, leaving their äiti by her lonesome in the hall carved into the mountain by wind and water and worn by time.
riannon rests her chin on snowshoe paws;
sighs soft into all manner of collected furs.
perhaps it would be better in hoping herself barren.
[/narrow]lately, the need for her belly to blush and swell for the first time in an age is an ache. a clawing for the stormcloak and for the ranger and for the raven. for biting kisses that she does not deserve and the knowing that she might even be pretty enough, even be precious enough to him for more. for everything. for nothing.
yet, would that she could gather such a one to her and bear his cubs ... it might not be fair, insomuch that her heart is still broke, and though most of her stardust, godsung children are with her for now and ever ( or, so she hopes ) she does not know if they would take kindly to the hunger-now-need-now-ache turned newborn from her womb. could she love what came from her? could she love the one that bed her, but did not wed — at the very least, for a night? could she cherish those that had found her, while she nursed and tried to remember how to nurture true and well?
could she love ...without her faceless, formless husband? he, who she always keeps hurt for in her stonedead heart? he, who, no matter living or ended, she vowed once to never betray even now? even here?
as much as she knows, their children are not here; gone into the mists as they are so wont to do, leaving their äiti by her lonesome in the hall carved into the mountain by wind and water and worn by time.
riannon rests her chin on snowshoe paws;
sighs soft into all manner of collected furs.
perhaps it would be better in hoping herself barren.
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