11-28-2021, 03:50 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-29-2021, 02:28 AM by Liutheri. Edited 1 time in total.)
Liutheri
"I'm just trash" Withered logic, an ashen fake..."
"I'm just trash" Withered logic, an ashen fake..."
@Ira
Liutheri was beginning to adjust, slowly but surely. His biggest obstacle, however, was this restless feeling he could not escape from. He was surprised for he had always complained about moving around, but now that he was stationed it felt wrong. He felt a lack of stimulation and gradually the puppy often found himself bored and on his own, watching the others but not interfering. Sometimes he had fun watching the puppies, making sure none wandered too far away. @Ries especially had been a great time killer for a magnitude of reasons, good and bad. He brought a warmness within him alight. Kept reminding him of the warmth his heart was capable of.
He did not think badly of the mountain family, (excluding Hiero). If anything, they help stabilize his fragile core. Help him build and remember what he once had and sought for. Yet this brought a self-consciousness too and he usually could not bring it in him to convey to the others unless absolutely necessary. Whenever he was asked to do something though he made sure to do it with haste that held an abundance of pride.
Yet he still did not feel like he was moving enough. The bottom line was...that he felt like he wasn't useful enough by not doing enough. The lack of action brought fear. He would not earn his keep, he would be thrown away, kicked out and abandon as he would not grow strong enough and keep up. He would be left behind just like them. Just like his family had done to one another. Sometimes he wanted to ask the king or queen if he was not enough, but he feared the answer, feared to bring attention to weakness.
Thus today as all of this and more overwhelmed him. This morning he found himself alone a little farther from the den then he should have been. With one paw going in front of the other, he continue to move further and further. He had nowhere he was heading, he just needed to move, needed to do something to distract himself. Already the world around him was unfamiliar, and it brought a bittersweet comfort as he sought a sort of escapism.
However as noon arrived with hunger and now tired paws around steep cliffs and plateaus. He found himself wanting to go home. Wait, was he allowed to say that? That restless anxiety was coming back. He didn't understand, he was moving around now, why did he still feel this way. Ears lowered flat against his skull, tears started to fall out of his eyes as he sat on his haunches and refused to move anymore. No more.
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