I Speak Through Actions. my words are too soft for you to hear
He might as well have been born without a tongue, for the abuse of not using it. When he speaks, it's a hushed whisper not to wake sleeping souls. Most of his communication is non-verbal. Unless needed, he will use gestures, eye contact, or the ever so slight contortion of his face. Sometimes there will be huffs and puffs of air, a click of the tongue or the teeth, or perhaps a rare smacking of lips, all of which could mean a variety of things. Although he holds strong eye contact when others are speaking, he will avoid eye contact when it is his turn to talk.
It's Hard To Be Near You. i don't know how to exist around people
He’s severed from a connection. Surrounded by miles of people, and he still feels alone on his small island. No matter how far he swims out he always ends up drowning or worse, back on the lone sands. He no longer bothers with trying to connect with others. Emotionally distant and hard to reach. He sits on sun-baked beaches watching everyone else from far away, and his mind even farther away. It always looks too bright in the sky, he squints against that beaming light, blocking his vision from everything else except for what's in front of him. Were one to ever reach that island le's laid claim upon, they would be greeted with not a hug, but a
cling. The cloying desperation for some kind of connection has him latching onto any who can manage to get close.
Is My Smile Crooked? im trying to hide how much i want to frown
Tragic. He feels the weight of memories he can't remember, bags of sand that rest on his shoulders and make him hunch over. There is a flash of blood, a ringing in his ears, and red-stained skin. Mounds of corpses littered in the distance, he can't get the image to focus for it only brings a streak of pain in his head. He was not a somber creature before—the incident–but after, his eyes have lost their light. He mourns in silence for a family he never met, of the face framed by silken hair, of a face dressed with a toothy smile. He questioned time and time again, who were those two in his memories of a life long passed, why do they fade a little with every day that passes, why is it that when he looks too hard at the dried blood beneath black nails—he gets a strain behind the eyes instead?
There's No Rest For Me. i see your knife when i close my eyes
He doesn't sleep much. His eyes are often heavy-lidded, there is a way where he stands. Blinking is slow and a millisecond too long. He often lies there and stares at the empty walls of a room with no personality. When he finally falls to rest, dreams always come and dreams are a broken record. A skipping film reel with no end of the incident that happened when he was a child—nothing solid—just brief glimpses, a tease, a close-up—too vague for him to understand. A wretched puzzle that only has pieces with no relation to each other. One half believes that the nightmares are a punishment for not remembering the one with dark eyes or the one with rosy cheeks. The other half just wants them to stop, with the fuzzy images that wake him to a shivering body and blurry vision. He doesn't want to stare down at red hands that won't get clean no matter how much he scrubs, the taste of something coppery on his tongue that won't go away
How Do My Teeth Look Up Close? my nails pierce my palms and i cant stop it
For all of his somberness and melancholy, he holds darkness within him. Gifted by an incident so long ago. He holds his jaw tight, his heart starts beating fast. There's a ring of a bell, fingers that snap, and his blood turns hot. Savagery overtakes his incredibly passive persona, a rage that originates from a blank spot in his memory. Harsh repression of the truth behind a wall gives cause to twisted anger–one that he fears. He shudders at his own shadow, knowing how sharp those teeth are when he closes his eyes for too long. The face he sees upon looking in the mirror is not one of sadness but of hate. A black ilk that bleeds through his eyes and dribbles from his mouth, it stains an almost all-white coat and there is no soap in the world to get it out. A black wine with no scent.
I’m Scared Of My Own Shadow. i know it will bite
His body has held strong, but it is enough to cradle this fragile mind. A cracked glass that he keeps throwing stones at. He wants to see what's on the other side, but he doesn't know what's good for him, he should've shut the blinds and turned away.